God has given me another year, I am alive and I thank you Lord!
Today marks another year of my existence on earth. I am amazed. I never thought I will still be alive on this day. God is indeed faithful and kind for someone like me. This is truly a rich blessing that I will always be grateful to God for HE heard my cry when I felt giving up and my spirit came low. He gave me another chance to live and healed me physically, emotionally and psychologically.
A lot of people greeted me on my special day through texts, emails and facebook. Good friends, relatives, brothers and sisters in LNP-Makati, and even someone I never expected. I am overwhelmed with all their thoughtfulness and wishes. I am happy really! Another blessing to be thankful to God.
With all these blessings, i can say that this day is not just an ordinary day but a very significant one like all other birthdays that I have celebrated. It is because this year, God led me to realize how to appreciate life more than anything else in the world. I have known what matters to me more that I use to ignore them before.
Just last year of Dec 21, 2009 when I discovered that I have a colon cancer Stage 2A. Rest is now history. Till now I cannot imagine how I was able to handle such situation. Looking back, during those past months, I was struggling for my life. My body was weak, and I don’t have the strength to even stand on my own. It was like my body was falling apart and I don’t know what will happen next. That’s when I realized that no one can ever help me get away with my sickness but only God. I don’t even know what’s happening around me but just pain. It’s hard yes but now that I have another year to live, all I can do is to give thanks to God and all the people who made it possible for me to reach this day.
Who would have thought that I got sick of Big C because now, i feel much better, I don’t feel pain anymore, I am in good shape, gained weight and my appetite is back. There maybe times that my left abdomen is having a prick and frequent gas pains perhaps because of eating too much 😉 but still I feel that everything is fine with my body. All I have to do now is to continuously take care of my body like manage well the food that I have to eat, should follow proper diet and ignore forbidden food, monitor my sleeping habits, should go to bed early and balance everything for the continuous recovery of my health.
I believe that with this new chance, God allowed me to see His goodness so I can reveal to each of you how he transformed my life now. I was not able to see the negative things brought by my sickness but the positive things it taught me. I hoped more and have faith more in Him. No words can ever surpass the joy and gratitude that I have with God. Amazing indeed how He changes my views coming from a negative thinker way back then.
Why I am still alive is God’s will with a purpose and I know that the life that I have right now will soon end and nobody knows when. I went to church to give thanks for the gift of life and prayed hard for good health and long life. I wanted to do so many things and it will only happen in God’s will. There are uncertainties in cancer and I myself accept that fact. What is certain is that I have a faithful God who keeps His promise of Eternal Life. And that is what I am looking forward 🙂 .
These verses are my stronghold in the days of my life, to remind me how great is our God and why I have celebrated my birthday now and hopefully for the years to come!
2 O LORD my God, I cried out to You And You healed me. 3 O LORD, You brought my soul up from the grave; You have kept me alive, that I should not go down to the pit.
Psalm 27:13-14 13 I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. 14 Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.
Jeremiah 29:11-13 11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
Mark 11:24 Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.
Matthew 7:8 8 For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.
Matthew 17:20 20 So Jesus said to them, “Because of your unbelief;[a] for assuredly, I say to you, if you have faith as a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible for you.